Trust - No Matter What
Updated: Jun 1
The last few months have been quite trying for me. Stretching me in ways I didn’t think possible. I have been hiding and running for awhile now from past memories, present challenges and future dread. And guess what? It all caught up with me. God has been speaking to me to trust Him - for months now. And I just didn’t want to face the pain that I knew would occur again when I stopped running to face my fears. Can you relate?
So you would think I would obey the words of the Lord, but nooo, this don’t-want-to-confront-things girl just hides. And my anxiety builds and stress becomes rampant (Corona Virus not helping) so much so that insomnia sets in, for two weeks.
Whew, that is rough. Countless journal entries and long nights later, there is progress. I learned a lot about God and myself during this time (still learning). Let me tell you - it is warfare - it is a battle, spirtually speaking, to stand up and face your fears and all that hinders you from being set free and living the victorious life Christ died on the cross for to give to you and me.
One of the main things I learned and am learning is to trust and what that means. I can say I trust God and still worry into the night or I can really truly trust Him and believe His promises to be true, His love to be true, His way to bring hope and let go of all that entangles me.
Here are a couple of verses I held tightly to:
“ Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.“ ~ Proverbs 3:5-6
“I sought the Lord and He heard me and delivered me from all my fears.“ ~ Psalms 34:4
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.“ ~ Philippians 4:6-7